Cheese Pasta

That virtue patience has a close cousin named waiting.
When I was a kid ( a long long time ago) I had to wait for everything. Is the Maggi ready? Wait. Don't eat it, it's too hot. Wait. Can I watch TV now? Wait. Don't shake your legs, be still and wait. I still do it, at the beauty parlor waiting room mostly. Shake my legs impatiently, but then I catch myself and stop. Because, even in waiting, there is etiquette. I shouldn't cut the line for movie tickets just because I'm a kid.  I had to respect how much everyone else has waited. Also they'll call you a brat child if you do that. (I  cut the line numerous times. I was a brat but at least I was a brat with movie tickets.What's the use of being small if I didn't use it.).Waiting at an ATM machine is bad enough without the person behind you going tsk in your ear. Maybe they think that makes the wait shorter. Waiting for my coffee to come doesn't give me permission to lean and rest my head on the counter (again, I still do that, though I know better. It comes naturally).
That stuff they talk about, delayed gratification, it makes no sense to me. Even though experiments prove that kids would prefer two marshmallows later rather than have one marshmallow now.
First of, I didn't realise we were in the Nazi regime. Why the heck are we still experimenting on kids? Second, what do kids know about time,anyway?They have enough and more of it.How do kids keep track of time? They are aware of it when their parents shake them awake for school. Then by the time they hear the steady drone of teaching, they lose it . Maybe they find it during lunch time, and then it's lost till their parents try to shove them back into the bed. Kids can't understand delayed gratification if they cant completely comprehend delay.
Coming back to delayed gratification.
Thinking something will taste sweeter if you eat it afterwards. I'll 'save' it for later.
Thinking this government has potential to do something in 5 years. Just wait and watch.
Thinking this government is going to destroy us in 5 years. Just wait and watch.
Wait, your results will be out soon. For boards, pregnancy,STD and such.
If you love someone, you let them go. If they come back, they are yours. Now I have to wait to see if they come back or not.

You could argue that being insta has made us forget the art of patience. But what if patience wasn't an art to begin with? What if it was just something you had to do, like tenth standard math. And we called it an art so people would not find it so obnoxious. Huh, stupid wait.

Now that everything is insta-whatever, I thought waiting would become obsolete.
Naive much?
It is the exact opposite. Waiting has become more intense and profound than ever before.It is obscene and it eats at our soul. You think I'm exaggerating? I am sure you have someone(s) whose messages you instantly reply to. If they messaged you, don't reply. Don't reply to them for an evening. If they see that you have 'seen' the message, they will churn up every possibility for your unresponse. From you hating them to alien invasion, they will have the plots (and sub-plots) to thirty odd books ready in their heads.
And the next day, when you reply,they'll ask
Hey, what happened to you.
Nothing.
Nothing?
Yeah, Just didn't feel like replying.
Lol, ok.
Don't let that 'lol' fool you for a minute.
That lol is holding the intensity of all the worry,anxiety,annoyance,frustration,anger at its core.

Waiting is a limbo.Sometimes, a well concealed limbo. Those interstices between doing things. Or that loop in my mind that keeps playing even when I am doing something else. An infinite loop.If I am waiting for the love of my life, it doesn't mean I sit in bed all day doing nothing and be completely engrossed in that one thought. I do other things. i wash dishes and watch movies and make friends and catch buses. Things of various priorities. But the infinite loop will exist somewhere at the back of my mind. A part of my head is completely engrossed in it, may be coming to full picture when a friend asks about it. Once the wait is over, it will break the loop and my head can go ahead and wait for other things. It's like when you 'save game' on your Playstation and then decide to play it later. Everything is frozen until you decide to press play.
I can hear time tick.
Mainly because the clock in my room is noticeably loud.
I wait for the perfect forever . But a part of my head knows
and tells me
that
Forever is but always longer than yesterday and shorter than tomorrow, love.